Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Tomorrow is New Year's Eve. REALLLLYYYY. Time can stop now, thank you.

(picture from this site!)

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Christmas is over. It's amazing how fast it goes, the anticipation building up for the months before and then -bam- it's over.

Matt and I talked things out, he agreed to be more sensitive of my feelings and I agreed to try not to be so crazy. Haha. He told me a story of another new girl that is going to be working with him at the new store who is boy crazy. Apparently she has gotten pretty close to crossing the friend zone line and he had a talk with her about it. He told her that their relationship is going to be purely work based and it wouldn't go beyond that. Makes me feel good that he shared that with me and actually put up those boundaries.

Back to Christmas. Christmas Eve we made cookies with Adrian and set them out for Santa and then Matt and I exchanged our gifts with each other. I knew Matt was strapped for cash so I didn't expect much and that didn't bother me. He did get me a few things but the card he got for me did me in. Wasn't the card per say-but what he wrote inside. It said:
Heather, I just wanna say thanks. Thanks for buying me dinner and things I don't need. Thanks for taking care of A. Thanks for being vegetarian. Thanks for sometimes being the big spoon. Thanks for putting up with my shit...even if you don't have family here, you can be happy with me! So smile, I love you! Merry Freakin' Christmas!

And then I cried and melted into a big pile of goo. We went to his parents house for Christmas day, got Grasshopper that night and just hung out.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

I took my last final last night and school is over until January. That is one stress off of my plate.

These last few days have torn me up and it's really hard for me to get excited about Christmas this year. I'm not spending it with my family , along with all of the stress leading up to it just makes me want to sleep until it's over. I really hate feeling this way and tried so hard to get into the spirit. Also knowing that my relationship is on the rocks hurts. We texted a bit last night and I'm going to have the chance to talk to him tonight and I know things will get better. We both have a ton on our plate right now and have gotten thrown into this whirl-wind relationship pretty fast.

I don't know what's next in my life. I wanted 2009 to be an amazing year, and it was but it was also filled with a lot of tears. I'm kind of glad 2010 is right around the corner, a fresh start, time to breath and get ready for even more insanity that lies ahead.

I've decided to start back up on birth control again, as much as I hate to do it. It really levels my hormones out and I'm sick of being all over the place. This past month I've felt like I've been pmsing non-stop. I know guys don't understand it and it's hard to explain how you go from wanting to rip someones head off, to crying, to perfectly happy all in the span of 5 minutes. I also need to start getting over my trust issues, and I honestly don't know how I'm going to do that. I fear that he will leave me, I fear that everyone will leave me, which after both of your 'fathers' don't want anything to do with you it's pretty hard not to have that fear. All the experts say I need to forgive them so I can move on, but I'll never forgive them. I try to forget and pretend that everything is fine in my life but there will always be that hole.


Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Why does being in a relationship have to be so damn difficult. Matt and I were great and one thing is ruining it, another girl.

He went on an interview at this girls store about 2 months ago. She thought he was the greatest thing since sliced bread, talked him up to people above them and continues to talk to him. Mind you, he was also told that this girl had a reputation of being a whore. She's the one who invited him to her Thanksgiving party for friends, she's the one who texted him asking for a picture to show her friends 'his stretched ears', she's the one who invited us over for a holiday party and then proceeded to kiss him on the cheek when we left. GUESS WHAT? I don't trust the bitch. She's married and investing way to much time in my boyfriend, something is not right and I've had this gut feeling something is not right since the beginning. I haven't been able to eat, Matt and I got in a huge fight and he pretty much told me that if I don't accept him being friends with these people than I should break up with him.

In my heart I know I'm not the girl that cares if he has 'girl' friends. He has other girl friends that I don't care if he talks with or hangs out with, but this one...something about her. I've had this happen personally in my life twice, and it ended badly both times. Also, one of the women was married so her being married has no bearing on what she is capable of.

I have finals today, I'm a wreck, I don't know what to do. I want to be able to not think about it and just let them be friends. Nikki gave me some good advice to just ride it out and see what happens but I'm afraid. The girl he's going to be working with all the time also texts him and calls him but I don't get any 'I want him' vibes from her.

I love him so much and to think that he would throw this away to be friends with her also eats me up. I don't know if he was just saying that because he was pissed anyways, I don't know.

Sunday, December 13, 2009

Still haven't seen Matt and it is absolutely killing me. I know that's pathetic and I never really understood people who missed their significant others while they were gone but I GET IT now.

We had a lovely phone 'discussion' and then I clarified tonight some things I had been feeling. I wanted to make sure he wasn't planning things with work as a way to distance himself from me. He was taken aback by this and told me in no way shape or form was that the case. This week just got to be crazy scheduling wise.

I get to see him tomorrow night if all goes as planned and I can't wait to smother him with kisses.

Got a lot of my Christmas present shopping done today. Bought my nieces some unique fun gifts, wish I could be there when they opened them :(

Last week of school before finals, have another meeting with the lawyer, a doctors appointment and potentially NYC on Saturday. Can't believe this year is almost over and I'm also 23. Eek!

Friday, December 11, 2009

In order to not say really mean things to a certain person I love, I'm going to vent here. Cute boy and I have been getting along swimmingly. Things were good, busy, hectic, but good. I try my hardest to spend quality time with him and admittedly it was usually at least 5 nights a week.

This week I've seen him once, and that was at 11 o'clock at night, right before I had to go to bed.

I'm frustrated, pmsing, hurt and angry.

On Sunday night we talked about going over to Nicoles house for a vegan potluck for Snak. We had these plans for about 3 weeks. Matt gets an e-mail shortly after from one of his co-workers (at another store-whom I think has a crush on him) that she is having an after Thanksgiving party. Higher ups were going to be there so he felt that it was important for him to go. Fine, go.

Monday he worked in Brighton, literally 10 minutes from my house. He was supposed to get off of work at 10, called me at 10:45 saying he was just leaving. Guess he had to tie up some loose ends.

Tuesday...I had a date night with Heather scheduled so I didn't see him. He had a man-date with his friend.

Wednesday I felt like I got hit by a bus because of my cold. I had been texting Matt throughout the day and agreed to go to his house at 8, when he would be getting home from work. He called me later saying that he agreed to drive something up to the Medford store from Providence. That means he drives literally 5 minutes from my apartment. I texted him and asked him if he would come snuggle after he was done just for a few and maybe bring me something hot to eat, i.e. soup. He said he didn't know if he had enough money for gas and food. I said forget about it, don't even come if you don't have gas. So he didn't. Secretly I just wished he would of. I know if he was sick I would do everything I could to help him feel better.

Thursday we made plans with John and Nicole to go see the Christmas lights display they have at Stoneham zoo. I thought Adrian would really enjoy it and we would get to hang out, just have fun. He called me in the middle of the day saying someone wanted to switch shifts with him so he would now be opening tomorrow, meaning he has to get up really early so he can't go out. I had to cancel the plans with John and Nicole and not see him for another night.

Friday, today. I'm babysitting until around 9 pm. I asked him if I could come over after because I really want to see him. He said sure but he's probably just going to go to bed. I asked him so when I come over you are just going to go to bed. He said yeah. At this point my head exploded. That's what you say to me?!?!? Couldn't you have just pretended you were really excited to see me and couldn't wait?!?!!? So fuck that, I think I'm going to go drink wine with Nicole.

Won't see him Saturday because I'm busy all day and babysitting tomorrow night. Sunday he has work and then needs to screenprint. I said maybe I'll come 'help' you screenprint and he said no because his friend Tom is coming over to see how it's done. Well fuck me. You tell me when you want to hang out next becomes I'm spent.

Again...still pmsing. Also found out today that I might have a cyst which I'm not too worried about but it would be nice to see my boyfriend. ARGHHGHGHGHGHGH.

I hate playing games but I'm about ready to become an ice queen and too busy to see him next week.

Sunday, December 06, 2009

This weekend included the fun filled task of getting the Christmas tree! Growing up picking out the correct tree was also a process. We would hike into the woods and wouldn't leave until the perfect tree was found. While this seems fun, it usually ended in someone being upset and all of us with frozen toes.

This year was different. It was rainy and gross out so we walked into home depot and picked out the first tree was saw. It was already wrapped so we were hoping when we got home that it didn't have any gaping holes. We set it up, put some lights on, threw Batman on top instead of a star and it looks great. Adrian was ecstatic,which is the best part of the whole thing. We did have one mishap though, when Matt and I were tying it to my car we tied it with my doors closed so we tied ourselves out. We had to climb through the windows which was an interesting experience.

2 more crazy weeks and then I'll have a nice little break. This week is busy, next week is busy, then finals and I'm DONE.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Thanksgiving eve. It's still tough being so far away from family for holidays. I'm spending Thanksgiving this year with Matt's family. His two brothers, their wives, his sister, parents and two nieces. I think that's it, who knows who will show up.

I see everybody saying what they are thankful for and it's always family, friends and health. My family means more to me than they will probably ever realize. I know I can count on them for anything. Same goes for my friends. They are my family over here.

I need this break, from

Thursday, November 12, 2009

This week has been flying by. Tomorrow is Friday, I'm still not caught up with last weekend.

On Friday Matt had to work and his parents were in Vegas so I offered to hang out with Adrian for the day. We went to the aquarium, rode the subway, bought a 'penguin' to hatch, watched a movie together and sat in traffic. I also lost the key to Matt's apartment in my car somewhere during this time and had a momentary freak out, but maintenance let me in and cut a new key. Kate went with us to the aquarium, had a fun time hanging out.

On Saturday the three of us went up to Rockport to go to Halibut Point State Park. The boys had fun throwing rocks in the quarry and I think I had 479 heart attacks thinking Adrian was going to fall in. We also played on the ocean rocks, Matt got himself soaked when he was standing on one rock and a wave came in. No photo proof because I was laughing my ass off.

Agenda for this weekend: Relax, thrift store shop, Matt's brothers birthday, Relax. We'll see how that goes.

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

We've only been dating for around 2 months and I can already tell that this relationship is so much different than my last, or any of all those other dates I've been on.

We were laying in bed last night and watching some documentary about truck drivers and he just breaks out into his truck driver accent and starts making out with me. It continued for a good 15 minutes and my sides were hurting from laughing so hard.

Life is going incredibly well right now and I am a lucky lucky girl.

Sunday, November 01, 2009

California was was nice to see that side of the coast again, to watch the sunset over the ocean. I miss that so much. Plus the palm trees, ohhhh, the palm trees. But I also remember why I left, everything looks the same..beige and boring.


I had a good time hanging out with Heathers friends. We drove around LA in Trudy, the awesome car, went to the beach, In and Out, had the Halloween party, dug through the Goodwill in downtown, ate the most amazing donuts, and laughed. It was a nice weekend away. Plus the weather.......sigh.

For the Halloween party, I went dressed up as Octo-Mom! It was amazing, if I can say that. Being in a relationship at a party without that person is interesting and not as fun. I stayed and chatted with the other girls in the same situation, yet still managed to get hit on by 'actors'. It was pretty funny and just showed me how image and status are what it's all about in this town.

Then it was time to come home and back to the real world. Also back home to THIS....

That is Dan Aykroyd and I have fallen madly in love with this little lump of fur. He bounces and jumps to greet me when I get home, snuggles in my lap and cuddles with my back. He's just the best!

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Sitting close to downtown LA right now, still on Boston time, enjoying some coffee while everyone else is sleeping. Heather and I flew out for the weekend to attend a Halloween party with her friends. Yesterday we went and got breakfast, drove around looking for plastic babies, saw cardboard couches, saw Snak, drove around dead ends and saw amazing skyline scenery, and had wig parties while dancing in the kitchen.

I bought the cutest little instant camera that I have a feeling is going to be draining my bank account. Film for that little sucker is expensive but SO CUTE. Can't wait to scan the pictures.

Friday, October 16, 2009

This weather is making me very sad and just wanting to crawl into bed and not move. There was snow yesterday in Mass..WAY to early. I took a mental health day yesterday, clear my head, get caught up, relax. It was the first time since I've been going to school that I missed a day and I hated it. Heather borrowed my car though and walking to the train in 30 degree weather when I'm getting sick just didn't sound appealing.

Had some insane drama over the weekend. Let's just say when your friend doesn't like your boyfriend, shit will usually hit the fan. I think that drama is over though and hopefully people will actually get to know him before they write him off. Things in that department are good though, couldn't ask for anything more right now.

Wednesday night Kate, Heather and I went and got treated to this.

Dean Mans Bones. Amazing! The album is perfect for fall, spooky yet inspiring. He had a kids choir with him as well and they made the show even better. Boston was their first show ever and seeing Ryan Gosling in person was nicceee.

Working today, tonight Nicole and I are getting our party on and tomorrow will be a nice relaxing day...carving pumpkins with Matt and the boy, baking apple treats and watching movies under blankies. I'm so excited.

Friday, October 02, 2009

October, holy fucking christ. This year can slow down anytime. This is my favorite month and my favorite time of year though so I’m trying to enjoy every single minute of it.

Apply picking with the boys went remarkable well. Matt’s son is adorable and very much a three year old. He was very well behaved until it came to testing out Ikea couches and then he was all over the place. That’s to be expected though. Jumping on couches that do not belong to me is also really tempting.

I brought Matt out to meet John and Nicole this past week, I needed some more opinions besides heathers. It was a quick visit and I think it went well. I’ve never brought a guy out to meet my friends that they didn’t already know so I was a little nervous. We are not official yet, don’t know exactly when or really care when that will be but I’d say we are dating and having a snuggle partner in time for the winter is awesome.

Today is heathers birthday so debauchery I’m sure will be done. We are going to go ride bikes (of course) and bar hop, with a stop off at the other side café to get some vegan chocolate cake. Dora and I are also making her vegan chocolate cupcakes, you can never have too much of that.

Weekend is busy, more apple picking, taking the little boy to his first movie ( cloudy with a chance of meatballs) hopefully that is succesfull, more movies with other friends and lots of homework. Joy.

Friday, September 25, 2009

Can't get enough of her album. It's been on repeat for weeks now.

Sitting here procrastinating starting my homework. I have a pumpkin candle burning, iced coffee and Converge on. Ready to get down into some Family Law.

The boy and I are going apple picking tomorrow. Finally going to take some pictures. I feel like I haven't used my camera in forever. I'm also meeting his son. Dun Dun DUN.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

I can’t believe fall is already here and it’s the middle of September. This is my favorite season and I hope I can drag it out as long as possible before the dreaded winter hits. School started two weeks ago and I have a feeling it’s going to keep me fairly busy this semester, along with boys. And friends. And work. After the whole fallout with the last boy I decided to join a dating website.

In my whole entire life, I never would have though I would be one to do that but fuck it, I did.
I was running out of boys to date in my circle, school doesn’t have the greatest selection and when I do go out im usually to nervous to talk to them. Anyways- I got quite a few messages from guys interested but none of them really did anything for me. Then about 3 days later this guy messaged me. He had tattoos, plugs, right up my alley. We met last Monday, talked at his apartment for a good 4 hours. He has a son which puts a whole new spin on things but I don’t want to discredit him just for that. Our second date, if you want to call it that, we went bowling, out to the other side café for some vegan food and then sat in a parking lot and talked for over an hour. I’m liking this guy. He’s funny and loud which I need but also very thoughtful and considerate which is something I’m not used to. I’m only thinking about the future ever so slightly, but for now I’m enjoying what is going on in the present. I believe things happen for a reason and maybe those 15 bad dates were getting me ready for this one. And if this one doesn’t work out….I really am becoming a crazy cat lady.

Friday, September 04, 2009

Dating! It is so much fun but so confusing. Things were going especially well with the boy, we spent a week together and it was awesome.

Then my mom came and he went to Vermont for the week. I said something joking to him and the joke went to far and I ended up saying things I did mean, but probably shouldn't have said to him. I was tore up the whole week about it. He came back from Vermont and we saw each other that night to talk about it. We talked it over, I explained myself, he explained what he was thinking and everything was good. I stayed there until 4 in the morning and then drove home. I also stayed over the next night. Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday he wouldn't really talk to me. I invited him to come hang out....but he didn't want to. No big deal.

I texted him yesterday (thursday) to see how he was. I asked what he was doing that night and he said staying in because he was heading to Nova Scotia tomorrow with this girl friend of his.


I was fine with that, but it almost seems to me like he is trying to piss me off and make me say crazy shit. We texted some more and I told him to let me know when he wants to hang out again because inviting him on all these hangouts only to be rejected is hurting my ego. I meant this in a totally lighthearted way but realized after I said it that he might take it the wrong way. Just like the last time. And he did, and he told me that I must be riding a ten speed bike with all of this backpeddling I'm doing. At that point I wanted to tell him to go fuck himself, but I refrained.

I gently explained that I don't lie, it was a joke and he could make of it what he wanted. I also asked him if I did something this week that I am unaware of. Haven't heard anything back and at this point I'm so done. Done Done Done.

To celebrate this joyous occasion, Heather and I bought some big beers and headed to Dora's house for some chocolate eating, drinking and bitching about boys. It did the trick. I had a blast.

I'm also done being the pursuer in boys for awhile. They can come after me if they want it.

Friday, August 21, 2009

What a week. Last Saturday was my date and suffice to say it was amazing. The boy is amazing, we click, laugh, and I can't wait to see where it goes. We've hung out a few more times and will spend tomorrow together.

Delaware was fun, I always wish I could stay longer. Micah is getting cuter and cuter and I loved playing with him. That age is so fun. Of course it was nice to see Erika too ;).

Today I am meeting up with Nicole, Nikki and little Lucas. We are going shopping, I am getting tattooed, Nikki is babysitting with me and then hopefully the three of us are going to the club. I hope it happens!

And on Sunday my Mom comes....I'm so excited!

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Summer needs to seriously slow down. It's already almost two weeks into August, ahhh!

Germany was amazing. There really are no words to describe how much I love Europe. I'll make a big post about that later.

For now, I've just been riding my bike and going on dates. Judd was back in town last weekend and we went out to see Doomriders. He stayed the night, we kissed and cuddled and then went to Autozone in the morning. My dates are so romantic. I don't know what's going on there.

I also have a date tomorrow with a boy I've never met. Heather set it up but Nicoles knows him as well. I'm excited! He asked if I wanted to help him move a tv to Maine and while there we are going to mini-golf, get some ice cream, play on the beach and look around. I think the house up there is empty and it also has a pool so who knows what will happen. I'm going to play it by 'year'.

I'm ready for school to start though, back to a normal schedule which my brain will enjoy.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

I don't know when I got it into my head that whitewater rafting sound fun. I guess I just didn't think it would be that scary, just kind of floating along the river and encountering some little rapids. I was wrong. Heather told us to go to the Penobscot in Maine because all of the other rivers were 'boring'. That should have been our first clue that this trip would be nuts.

Heather had to go and get lyme disease the day before we left so she wasn't able to come with us :( We got to the rafting place bright and early at 7 am. There was this group of dirty old men that were there too and Kate and I kept joking about how we would probably get stuck with them. Out of the 150 people that went rafting that day, we got stuck with them. Ha! Just our luck.

It was actually probably the best thing that could have happened. These 6 guys were there for a bachelor party. They were crude, rude, tattooed and we all had a blast. We had an awesome chick guide named Jamie who fit right in as well.

We dropped in at the dam and were told we would be hitting our first class 5 rapid about 10 seconds downstream. Sink or swim time. I can't really explain what it's like to be paddling down a river, go over some water and look like your falling into a hole of water. It's awesome but scary and gets the adrenaline pumping. I paddled like crazy because there was no fucking way I was falling out of that boat. We hit more class 5 rapids, a waterfall and I didn't fall out once. We even surfed the rapids which was also a blast. I definitely want to go again.

The rest of camping was fun. Kate and I were so dead tired after rafting that we just ate some s'mores, had a beer, did some light painting and headed to bed.

We woke up Sunday, made pancakes and headed to Hampton Beach, New Hampshire. That place attracts the trashiest people, it's awesome. I want to go there and just people watch. We ate seafood, had a few beers (shocker) and headed home.

Last night I went on a double date! It was the Stanchis and then Jeremy and I. We wanted to see the Sail Boston boats that came into town but only managed to see one. Right as we got to the pier to see it, it started leaving. Haha. So we went to the Barking Crab for some appetizers and headed over to see Bruno. That movie had me in stitches. Okay, got to get stuff done. 5 more days until Germany.

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

I've come to realize the past few weeks that I am most certainly a person who needs a schedule. This schedule can and should have moments of spontaneity, but there needs to be somewhat of a routine.

This summer there has been no schedule. Because of that I feel like my life is still spinning out of control. I feel like I'm forgetting to pay bills (I'm not) and get caught up on any sort of project. This week I have been slowly getting caught up on just little shit that has needed to get done. This also means that my summer has been extremely busy which is a good thing. I've been doing a lot of things at night, hanging out with friends and laughing.

This past Saturday was the fourth of July so Kate, Michael and I went to Alysons apartment in East Boston. There are pictures but I think I look like hell in all of them. I'm anxiously awaiting for Kate to put them up. I drank way to much vodka, ate some little hamburger cupcakes, watched the Boston fireworks from the roof deck, listened to impromptu guitar songs and helped clean up a broken smashed back window. It was one of the more memorable fourths I've had in a long time.

This weekend I'm headed up to Maine to camp, roast marshmellows, white water raft (!!!) and have more laughs with friends.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

I haven't even started writing this post and I'm getting teary eyed. It's been an emotional day, even more emotional for me I think then when my blood nieces and nephews were born. I think it's just a different relationship with Nicole.

I consider Nicole one of my best friends but more than that. Everything is not always rainbows and butterflies with us which makes us more like sisters. We have been through a lot and at times I've wanted to strangle her, haha. I'm sure she's wanted to do the same. But we get through it and we still continue on. I love her like my sister and seeing her becoming a mom today was wild.

Got the call last night that her water broke and headed to the hospital a few hours later. We were told it was going to be 10 to 20 hours, I didn't believe them and was going to wait it out. At like 2 o'clock in the morning we all decided to head home, get a few hours of sleep and head back. I woke up at 7 and headed back to the hospital. Little did I know that 30 minutes after I arrived she would have the baby. We didn't find out until about an hour and half later.

John finally came out and told us all that a little Lucas Matthew was born. I was shocked, I thought all along it was a little girl. The family is so equipped for boys though and I can't imagine a little boy that wouldn't dream of growing up in a skate park.

Nicole looked amazing when I saw her, like she was on cloud nine. Didn't even seem like she just pushed a baby out!

I'm heading back up tomorrow to see them and visit a little longer. I'm so proud of Nicole and so excited for her and John and honored to be a part of this. I hope this little boy is ready for a life filled with crazy friends and family.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Why are guys so silly? I don't get them and they seem to be pretty simple creatures. It's been a year since I've broken up with B and I've been on a few dates and have hung out with a good amount of guys. Obviously, none of them have worked. One looked like Kurt Cobain except he was really quiet. One was just hot and a douchebag. One, okay a few, were way to clingy. And then I met another one Friday night and today he proceeds to send pictures of himself to my e-mail address? WHY? I can only laugh because....really? He seems like a nice guy, kind of cute and then BAM had to send me pictures of himself.

I do have a blind date Friday. I'm excited. We texted for a bit and the boy seems to actually have a brain. And can use big words! It's going to be a late date though so we're going to go to the movies...Transformers? Do hardcore boys like that? No idea, tough shit.

If this doesn't work out I'm just going to marry my new baby...the D200. I'm in love.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

I don't really know what to think about today. I sign into my e-mail this morning and start reading the updated blogs. They all have these super wonderful fathers day posts written out. It makes me teary eyed and sick to my stomach all at once.

It's been 5 years since I've talked to me Dad.

I wonder what he's doing today. If he ever thinks of what he lost.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

I think I've been at my new job about a month now and everything is going splendidly. I went through my archives a few days ago and read some of the old posts about my former nanny jobs. I can't imagine working for that again and I'm finally glad I decided to grow some balls and stand up for myself.

I spent yesterday playing with my adorable little Ellie outside. When I first met her she cried and cried and cried but now I think we are figuring each other out. She usually only cries if she is hungry or tired. Plus those smiles she gives me right before she falls asleep, love them!

We had one nice day of weather and now gross rain for days. But this makes me happy! Mmmmmmm

Rode last night to the common the see The Hangover. OMG. I about peed myself from laughing so hard. Plus the preview for Bruno looks just as laugh inducing, have to go see that.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

I booked my flight to Germany! I'm really excited and even more excited that it's only a month away.

Another busy weekend. Friday I went and met new baby Scho. He is so adorable and slept pretty much the entire time. Also had a nice chat with Mary. Usually they are running out the door or I am when I go to babysit so it was fun to sit and talk. Had lunch with Nicole and then came back to the city to meet Kate. We went thrift store shopping in Davis Square. Didn't find anything though :(

Went up with Dan, Heather and the boys at Picco in the South End. We had pizza and ice cream and way to many inappropriate stories. Also learned how to catch face lice, gag, and almost passed out.

After THAT, Heather and I headed to JP for the Nesop graduation party. Had a beer, talked with people and walked home around 2 am. Such a busy day. Last night Heather and I went bike riding and it kicked my ass. I went to bed at 10 pm and couldn't drag myself out this morning until almost 1. So pathetic.

Sunday, June 07, 2009

The weekends of having something planned everyday are over. Hooray! Finally time to enjoy some camping, bbqing, and the nice weather.


Sorry, got distracted. Heather texted saying she had carrot cake so I hauled ass on my bike over there to get some. Delicious! I also made Conor give me a ride on his motorcycle around Boston. That thing was so much fun!

Anyways-Friday night I babysat for a couple from California. The parents were a riot, we had a good time and the kids were insanely good. After that I went over to the hostel where Colin works. He's spending the summer in Nebraska so we had a little going away party for him. We went to the dive bar TC's, I did two shots and had a stoli and sprite. I was done. Went back to Heather's house and fell asleep cuddling with Juddy. Gah, that boy. He's moving back to Boston and I would love for it to go somewhere but knowing my luck it won't. So I'm not getting my hopes up and just letting things happen when they happen.

I went riding tonight by myself down to the Charles river to look at the skyline. So nice and peaceful. I really really love this city.

Wednesday, June 03, 2009

Seasons keep me in check. Winter is there to remind me that mother nature sucks and also to truly enjoy the other months. Summer is not my favorite season but I love nights like tonight. Perfect sunset, a cool breeze and driving home during twilight. Watching Boston light up. This is what makes winter worth it.

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Heather came over last night and we chatted about life. She thinks come September that she is going to pack up all over her stuff and move to Taos for a month and then after that who knows. Of course this makes me incredibly sad. I feel like since I've moved here all of the people whom I've grown to really care about move away. The nannies all went back to Europe and now Heather is leaving. I have also been starting to hang out with Kate more and her and Mike are thinking of moving to San Fran next Summer. It just bums me out.

I would love to be able to pack up my stuff and just move on but I don't feel like I have that urgency yet. I know before I can go anywhere I need to finish school. I would also like to put in a few years as a paralegal just to get some experience. If, after that, I feel like I need to go somewhere I will.

I've traveled through almost all of the states and have seen a few countries. For some reason Boston just feels like home to me. Even though I'm sad that my friends are leaving I know I will continue to make new ones and as long as I feel at home here, I'll probably stay.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

The road trip was fast, furious and really fun. We left a little later than we wanted to on Thursday night but we were still able to make it to the border of Pennsylvania. We slept in the car the first night at some rest stop. Actually Heather slept in the car and I tossed and turned the whole time.

Pennsylvania's roads were pretty much tore up all throughout the state. We would go through 15 miles of construction, get a one mile break and then another 15 miles. It made for a long day but we survived and passed into West Virgina. I was pleasantly surprised with this state. It was so green and beautiful. The people were interesting but the state was nice. Kentucky was beautiful too. Rolling green hills. We stopped in Lexington for some dinner and drinks. We were driving around and saw tattooed people sitting outside a bar so we decided to go there. They recommended getting a 'hot brown' from this restaurant down the street so we did. I had never heard of that but is is

"The Hot Brown is an open-faced sandwich of turkey and bacon, covered in Mornay sauce and baked or broiled until the bread is crisp and the sauce begins to brown. Many Hot Browns also include ham with the turkey, and either pimentos or tomatoes over the sauce...

sounds disgusting, but it was actually really good. We went back to the bar and got to hang out with the locals. There accents were so thick, it was funny to talk to them. They were nice but we hit the road again. I couldn't handle another night of sleeping or rather not sleeping in the car so we drove to Elizabethtown and I paid for a dumpy motel room. We went through Tennessee the next day and ate at Sonic and drove straight through Arkansas. From what I saw out of the car windows, Arkansas didn't look to pleasant.

We were going to stop in Oklahoma city to do the dinner and drinks thing again but right as we were coming into the city we got hit with a huge storm. The rain started and it was pretty heavy so people started stopping underneath highway overpasses. I kind of laughed at them, and we kept driving. Then the hail hit. The hail was hitting the car so hard we though the windshield was going to break. We got off the highway and stopped on a little driveway into an apartment complex. The complex was chained off so we couldn't go any farther. About 5 minutes later the street was completely flooded and we needed to get out of their before we were stuck. Heather had to jump out and make sure the car wasn't on the chain while I backed up into a gigantic water puddle. It was insane and we were both shaking by the end of it. We made it to Oklahoma City and had dinner and drinks at some local dive, The Biting Sow. We walked around after trying to find some hipper places but they all charged a cover fee. It was crazy, you walked into a bar that had 3 whole people in it and they wanted a $7 cover fee. Boston doesn't even have those so we just watched some street performers and hit the road again. We got a hotel again and ate at some cute diner the next morning. I thought Oklahoma was gorgeous. Flat, rolling hills with lots of wheat. Reminded me of Western Montana. Huge skies were you could see for miles, I loved it.

We drove through Amarillo in the morning and stopped at the Cadillac Ranch on the way out of town. We also stopped at the biggest cross west of something. The jesus billboards, jesus radio stations and jesus gas stations were all a little much for me. Actually it made me quite uncomfortable. I'm all for freedom of religion but don't push it down my throat and anyone else that happens to drive down the road. They have to realize that not everyone believes in the same religion they do, right? Probably not. We then got to New Mexico. We were both extremely tired at this point so we just drove around Albuquerque. We stopped to have some real Mexican food and I'm still thinking about it. It was delicious.

We also grabbed a coffee before Heather dropped me off at the airport. She still had three hours to drive so I had her drop me off around 10 pm even though my flight wasn't until 6 am. I thought I would be able to sleep. I thought wrong. I pulled an all nighter and I'm still paying for it. My body didn't know what the hell was going on.

Now I'm trying to get back into somewhat of a routine. I feel so off with changing jobs and school ending. I have more busy weekends ahead but then hopefully it slows down so I can get back to normal.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Tomorrow I am driving to New Mexico with Heather. We have 4 days to get there and then I'm flying home bright and early on Monday morning to be back to work on Tuesday.

I bought my ticket home last night, nothing like waiting until the last minute, but when you don't know you are leaving until two days before you leave, that happens.

Hopefully we both make it home alive without killing each other and with lot's of pictures and stories about southern boys.

Monday, May 18, 2009

I feel like every post I start has something to do with how busy I feel and this one is no different. This weekend was extremely busy. On Friday I went and met Nicole at her doctors office. We went out to lunch, bj's, and then I ran some other extra errands. I hate running errands, so mundane. Her shower was on Saturday so I had to get all the little things down.

Saturday was her shower. We got up and got breakfast and then went to work. I didn't want her there because I knew she would help and she did. I don't think I could have gotten everything together though without her. Some guests showed up 45 minutes early which threw me for a little loop and then trying to wrangle everyone outside was also fun. Other than that, I think it went okay. I didn't sit down once and was running all over the place so I didn't get to enjoy it as much but I hope everyone else enjoyed themselves.

I had to babysit on Sunday so I just stayed over at Nicole's again. Maddie was great as always and Mary is getting ready to have the baby any day. Rob thinks it's going to be this week. I just want to know what it is.

Tomorrow I don't have to work until 4 so I'm going to ride my bike, grocery shop and sleeeeep.

Monday, May 11, 2009

The weekend was a blur and it's so nice to have today off to catch up and get ready for my first day of work tomorrow at my new job.

Friday my bosses had a BBQ for me, except with pizza. Rich is an amazing cook. We also had sangria, lots and lots of sangria. It was nice hanging out with them for a few hours, not having to worry about work or the kids. They gave me an incredibly sweet card and we had our exchange of tears. Rich and Barry also told me they thought of me as their little sister and I'm part of the family now. I'm going to miss them.

Friday night I was going to stay in, but decided to go out instead. We went and say Catie's band Sway at the Plough and the Stars in Central Square. It was nice, the band is so cute. Not to mention hot lawyer-in-training is in the band. Yum.

Saturday Heather and I went bike shopping. After living in the city I have come to realize why people ride bikes. Biking is much faster, cheaper and gives you a nice ass to boot. I bought my little Torker, he's so cute.

That night we went back to Central Square to celebrate Ann-Marie's birthday at the Pheonix Landing. Heather and I decided to ride our bikes there. We got all cute and dressed up and then it started pouring. We sat in my apartment for a second until the rain stopped. We thought it was safe but we were wrong. It started pouring while we were riding to Cambridge. I was in a skirt and tights and looked like a drowned rat by the time we got there. It wasn't a pretty sight. We still danced all night long, even getting up on the benches to dance for some awesome 80's music.

Sunday-Mother's Day, didn't do a damn thing. I think I laid in my bed for 10 hours, I was so sore.

Busy busy weekend and busy busy week.

Thursday, May 07, 2009

So this is it. My last day of work with my boys is tomorrow. I've been tearing up all week thinking about it. I thought about it even more while walking tonight and I know this time was coming but it's hard. This is the first time I've actually felt that the people I work for appreciated me. I didn't mind coming to work, I had fun with them. I think of them as my family know and I know this is not the end.

Monday, May 04, 2009

I have homework due tomorrow that I am currently not doing. Take that computer class!

This weekend was fun. On Saturday I went with Nicole to Stephanie's bridal shower. I think those events are more fun when it's not actually your family. You can stand back and watch the drama unfold and not have to actively be a part of if. Until on of the Aunts explains to you that her photographer ruined her wedding. What a pleasant thing to say to the very very amateur photographer...aka me...of this wedding. After the shower we went and get pedi's. It was amazing and something that I will have to do more often.

Yesterday I went with Kate and Justin to the arboretum in Jamaica Plain. That place is beautiful! I want to take Nicole there to get some maternity shots. Here are some of the shots she took.

I am super critical of myself, but I think these turned out okay. We had a lot of fun. We ended the day with a trip to the movies to see X-Men Origins. I have not seen the rest of the X-Men movies but I really enjoyed it. Going to have to watch the other ones now.

2 more days with my boys :( They are having a BBQ for me on Friday, coming home from work early so we can grill. I got teary eyed tonight when Barry was telling me the plan, asking me what kind of food I want to eat. I don't want this to be the end. I am excited to start a new adventure with a new family though and I'll always remain friends with these guys.

Monday, April 27, 2009

I think all of Massachusetts heard me let a big huge SIGH today because I got the JOB!

Yay Yay Yay Yay Yay Yay

I start May 12th. Just looking at the boys today made me tear up, I am going to miss them so much. Even on the days they are little shits, they are still MY little shits and I love them :( 5 more days together. I need to think of something to get their parents...hmm....ideas?

Sunday, April 26, 2009

I needed this weekend. The weather was amazing, even though I'm sweating like a pig. I had a great night out for Conor's birthday. We went out to Charlies Kitchen in Harvard Square. It's a little dive bar with amazing burgers and okay drinks. I had a total of three drinks and could barely walk, I'm such a lightweight. The guys were all extremely funny and I almost laughed until I cried on numerous occasions, along with almost peeing myself. Colin tried to get me to make out with him the whole night and at the very end he got a kiss on the cheek. Lucky dude!

Today I had two interviews. They both went extremely well and now I'm afraid I'll be offered two jobs and have to decline one :( They are both pretty much the same thing and I like both families equally so the we'll see what happens. By the end of the week I hope to finally know if I have a job. I'm treating myself to a pedicure when I get one and I need a pedicure BAD.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Is this week over yet? Between school, work, trying to find a job, being sick and trying to find a job, I'm spent. Seriously spent. I don't know at what point my body and mind start mentally breaking down but I feel like it's close, and it scares me. I have a working interview with a family in Belmont on Sunday and before that I have an interview with a family in Lexington. I also have one on Monday with some family somewhere else. Still, I'm scared. I just want this whole thing to be over so I can move on with my life and stop stressing about every little thing. Less than two weeks to go.

This weekend was interesting. I had a lovely Friday night with Nicole. We went to dinner and shopping. Got caught up on all of the gossip that we needed to. It was nice to hang out and her pregnant belly is pretty damn adorable. So weird seeing your good friends pregnant. On Saturday morning I drove down to New Jersey to see the boy. I get there and he wants to take his truck to the car wash, no big deal. Then he comes home and wants to vacuum out the fucking thing. I am literally sitting on the steps of his house for a good hour, hour and a half while he vacuums. We went for a long drive after that and chatted a bit. It was at this point that he started to become distant I guess? It was weird. We went back to his house and he played video games and then we ate dinner with his family. I adored his parents, they were amazing.

After dinner we decided to go out to a bar with one of his friends. In Nicks words, he wanted to get fucked up. Lovely, eh? Have a nice girl visiting from another state and you want to get completely smashed. We're sitting at dinner and I'm chatting with his friend about life and what not. While we're talking, Nick starts talking to the two girls that are sitting at the table next to us. I seriously was speechless. I'm still speechless and want to know what the fuck was running through that boys head. We went to his friends house to hang out, we were there for all of 20 minutes when Nick needed to go home because he was plastered.

He came home, passed out on the futon and that was it. I should have just left then but I had had some drinks so that was out. I woke up in the morning, he started cleaning his room for a house showing and then I left. He hasn't talked to me all week and I sure as hell am not initiating conversation with him. He wanted to come up this weekend since his friends were but I doubt that is going to happen. Don't know if I even really want to see him anyways. I would like to talk to him to see what the fuck is going on.

Oh well, plenty of other fish in the sea. I'm not wasting my time on someone like that.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

I'm just sayin', getting complimented by a suicide girl when your tattoos are not even visible will really boost your confidence.

I went to Heathers art show tonight in Southie. It was really really fun. I went with Dan and all of his roommates who kept me laughing the entire time. Tears rolling down my face laughing.

I was talking to one of Heathers friends and this group of people was standing next to us, four of them. They kept looking over at me and then looking away. This went on for a good 10 minutes. I was getting very embarrassed because I thought they were making fun of me and honestly had no idea why. :( I walked over to Heather and asked if she knew them, of course she did. She went to talk to them and the girl came over and said they kept looking at me because they thought I was adorable. Serious self confidence booster!

I need to go to bed, but I'm still pumped from tonight. Might be heading to Jersey this weekend and dinner date tomorrow with Nicole!

Saturday, April 11, 2009

All of a sudden my life has been throw into busy mode. I'm not liking it, I probably shouldn't even be writing this because I have so much to do.

I just had to jot down my first time ever getting pulled over. It's a historic moment in many peoples lives and mine was no different. Heather needed me to drive her to Southie to drop of some prints for her show next weekend. Of course I said yes. We're driving along and hit a red light. It turns green and the car in front of me just starts inching forward, I wait, he sits there so I honk and drive around him. This was legal because it was a one way street. Not even two seconds later he flips on his lights. I don't think I registered at this point that I was getting pulled over because, seriously, who gets pulled over for honking. Especially considering I always drive at least 10 miles an hour over the speed limit, I guess they don't care about that. The officer got out of his car and gave me a nice little chat about exactly what a horn is used for. Apparently it's not allowed to be used to tell people to "get the eff out of my way". I'm still cracking up about it.

Thursday night is free night at the ICA so we went. Shepard Fairy's art exhibit is being shown right now. He is the one that did the very popular Obama print.

I hadn't seen very much of his work before this but I'm in love with it! It's amazing. They had this huge piece of a little girl smelling a rose out of a grenade and I think it might be my favorite. The print in the show looked different than this but I like how he pastes them in cities.

Back to work. I have an interview today that I'm feeling very hopeful about, I really really need this job so I need it to go well.

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

**Warning, vent ahead**

If you don't want to know my true feelings than turn back now. This is the reason I have a blog. For me to get my thoughts out. I don't give my blog address to family or very many friends because frankly, some times I need to bitch about them.

This is one of those times.

After the break-up of Bob and I, he admittedly took it harder than I did. Does that mean that I didn't hurt? No, I did. I cried through a good week for him. I felt like a total bitch hurting him but I didn't love him and needed to move on. I had never experienced a break up before and thought that my friends would come running with pints of Ben and Jerry's ice cream and movies for us to watch. They didn't. I made it through that time by myself. I remember on one occasion asking to go to a club to get my mind off of things. That didn't happen. A party was thrown but since Bob was there, I wasn't invited. I totally understand that he doesn't want to hang out with me, especially at his house. I just thought maybe my friend would say screw the party, want to go to dinner? I sat at home that night crying again.

I'm not used to this kind of 'friendship'. Growing up I had a very very few select people who I called my friend. I would bend over fucking backwards for these people if they ever needed me. I know they would do the same. Coming here it's been quite a shock to the system because that isn't necessarily happening.

So, since Nicole's birthday is right around the corner and her being what I would consider one of my best friends, I wanted to celebrate it with her. Especially since this is her last childless birthday. It's kind of a big one. I had been talking to her about it for awhile. I even mentioned once planning something if John wasn't going to. I was assured that John had it handled and I didn't need to worry about it. I have been bugging her for a few weeks, let me know what the plan is. I also told her to let me know if Bob was going to be there. This was when I thought Nick might be coming down and that would be awkward for all involved, but I highly doubt he's coming so now I don't care if Bob will be there.

Imagine my surprise when today I'm informed that me, Nicole, John and possibly Heather can go to dinner. Then they are going to Bobs house for a party, but I'm not invited. I wasn't going to get offended or hurt, but it happened. I'm human. So that's it. I'm going to spend an hour at dinner with them and then come home.

Why does this upset me so much? Because I've been there for Nicole a lot. We used to spend pretty much every single day together and now that I'm living in Boston that hasn't been happening. She see's Bob all of the time now so I don't quite understand why it's of the up most importance to spend the evening with a bunch of fucking underage drunken teenagers. It makes me feel like shit. I'll probably spend the evening planning her baby shower where I see hundreds and hundreds of dollars flying out of my bank account and absolutely no business spending that kind of money. But I want to. Because that's what friends do. Or so I thought.

Saturday, April 04, 2009

Yesterday I called my mom and told her that I wanted to try and contact my read dad.

This is something I have been thinking about for awhile but watching Dr. Phil yesterday made me make the call. He had families on who from the help of The Locater, had been re-united.

When I was younger I always said I never had any interest in knowing him. But as I've gotten older, I've been more curious. What is he like? What personality traits of mine did I get from him? I know I have half-siblings, what are they like? Do they even know I exist?

I don't know if I'll even been able to find him, or talk to him, but I'm going to try.

Monday, March 30, 2009

This weekend was a total blast. Tiring but fun.

I left work early on Friday and headed to New Jersey first. Didn't think I was going to stop there but at the last minute Jersey boy found out he could get out of the photoshoot early so we could grab dinner. I wasn't nervous to meet him because we had talked online for months and I felt like I knew him already. He took me to this little Mexican restaurant with no tables, just a bar. The food was delicious, the Spanish soap opera in the background was amusing and the conversation flowed easily. I didn't want to seem to into him, but man, the boy is cute.

We talked and talked and then drove around looking for ice cream. I met his parents who seem fun and all of his 5 crazy dogs. We had a quick little peck of a kiss when I left. Awwww. I don't want to get to excited just yet because I don't want to get crushed, but there is something there. He is supposed to come up to Boston two weeks. Yay!

On to Delaware. I didn't get in until after 12:30 (sorry Erika!) even though I hauled ass on the Jersey Turnpike. Saturday morning we all woke up to rain. We decided to still head into Philadelphia, and lucky for us, it never rained. Just stayed overcast. We hit the zoo which was fun.

After the zoo we went to the King of Prussia mall which was GINORMOUS. Right after walking through the front doors we were confronted by some man that was bleeding heavily from his foot region. As we walked into the mall more there were puddles upon puddles of his blood. It made me nauseous. We stopped in a few stores but were all so pooped we took off for dinner. Joe and Erika took me to this awesome Asian restaurant. We went back to their house and I tortured them with watching Twilight! It's an obsession.

Sunday we just hung out around the house. It was so much fun catching up on everything that has been going on in these past years. So glad I went down and I can't wait to hang out again! Micah is just to adorable for words and such a good baby!

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Seriously, how am I not getting dates? :)

This week went by fast, it was nice not having school but back to the grind this week.

I'm on week 4 of my running program and I'm feeling SO much better. It's amazing what a little exercise will do in my life. I've even gained weight, but I don't really care. I can tell my clothes are fitting better and I just feel better overall. Today was a tough run though. I made it all the way through but felt like I was going to pass out when it was over.

I can't wait for this weekend! I'm going to see Erika, her husband and her adorable little boy. I think the last time I saw Erika was probably a good 4 years ago, maybe even longer. It'll be nice to catch up. I'm also stopping in NJ on the way down to meet Nick for dinner, which I'm also very excited about. We'll see where it goes.

Monday, March 16, 2009

This weekend was lovely, went by way to fast though. Saturday I went for a jog and then drove to Hyde Park to hang out with Dustin. His mother was their and I absolutely adore her! She brought out so much food, drinks and chatted. It was nice. We watched the movie Lost Highway. I'm not one to usually hate a movie, but it's official, I hated that movie. The movie itself was good, suspenseful, creepy, but it had multiple stories going on and never really closed them or brought them together.

Sunday I went to Southie for the St. Patrick's Day parade. Betsy invited me over to Marks apartment and we partied on the roof deck. From the roof you could see the parade which was fun. No drinking for me which was a bummer, I was the only sober one their. It was nice to catch up with Betsy and hang out with her friends. I met a few new cool people as well. I had to babysit Maddie later that day so I headed out after the parade, making my way through all the drunks on the T. Always fun.

Still job hunting. Still anxious. I hate it but I'm trying not to dwell on it. What happens, happens.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Just last week I was saying to my mom that life was going great, too great. I told her that I was expecting something bad to happen. Boy, I was right. She just called to tell me that the dog died. Just because this week couldn't get any better.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Well, I guess you can add me to the list of people who have lost their job in this economy. Ironically enough, it isn't because of the economy. When L goes on maternity leave they won't be able to pay me as much and her mom is retiring from teaching and will be able to watch the babes during the day. I would still be able to watch N two days a week but financial I can't do that so the job hunt is on.

It gets me a little teary eyed thinking about it. I have come to think of my employers more like my family. I come in every morning and chat/gossip with them. They are my friends, and I'm not just hired help. I've been watching these boys since they were just little blobs laying on the carpet, and now they are big kids. Granted, they are the slowest walkers known to mankind but that will be my mission before I leave. So, it's going to be sad to leave and it's a little scary knowing that I won't have a job after April. I started putting in resumes last night as soon as I found out. Not having a job is not an option. I have bills and rent and nowhere to go if I can't afford them.

Everything will work out though and I just need to stay positive. With school, finals and life it's just a little overwhelming.

Random picture taken at Wait St. last weekend. Seems appropriate now.

Sunday, March 08, 2009

Since my lovely lovely mother sent me money to take my friends out to dinner, I made her happy and took them out last night. We walked from Mission Hill to the South End at had dinner at the Beehive. The weather was amazing, so nice for walking around Boston. The restaurant was cool, it was in a basement with exposed brick and chandeliers. Heather, Dan, Julian and I each got awesome food, mine being a very rare burger. It was delicious. They also have frites which are a type of french fry that were soooo good.

After dinner we decide to walk to the North End to get cupcakes. If we are going to eat shitty we might as well eat really shitty, right? While walking there the city was re-enacting the Boston Massacre. Apparently they do this every year, except none of us knew about it. HA. We also watched break dancers for a bit who were insane.

For cupcakes we stopped at LuLu's and got 4 different flavor cupcakes to split. Carrot (me, still on that kick), orange creme, vanilla and oreo. Splitting them 4 ways was so fun, we each got to try all the different flavors and ended up only eating one cupcake. It started raining as we were sitting in the park so we started walking back. We got a wild to go see the Watchmen so we walked to the Common and hunkered down for the longest. movie. of. my. life. Good thing it was entertaining!

After the movie we then made the walk home. My body was so tired by the time I got home, I was a happy little clam when I got to crawl in bed.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Nothing to terribly exciting happening around here these days. I applied this week to Urban Outfitters after having a mini meltdown with Heather. It's hard living so far way from your friends and family and I've had a hard time meeting new people. I'm grateful for the few friendships I have but when they are busy I sometimes feel lonely. She suggest getting a weekend retail job to meet people and make a little extra cash so that's exactly what I'm trying to do. I realize in this economy it's not going to be the easiest but we'll try.

I also had a random hang out session today with a boy from my computer class. He came up to me after class and asked if I could help him. I sat with him for like 20 minutes getting some files in order and then he asked if I wanted to hang out after school. I said sure, why not. We went and grabbed some coffee's, took a little walk and then went back to the college to play frisbee. So random! It was fun, something to shake up the usual routine week.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

She came to the daycare nearly the exact same day I started working. She was adorable and all the teachers were in love, for all of about 15 minutes. That's when she started screaming. Nobody had the time,energy or patience to try and calm her down so I took on that task. What a task it was and thus our relationship began.

Her parents went up to Betsy one day asking if she was available to babysit, she said she would look at her calendar and let them know. She already had something scheduled that day so I offered to watch her. The tattoos might have freaked them out at first but they agreed.

I've been babysitting her for about 2 years now and I can't believe the time is going that fast. Her family and I have become good friends and talk regularly. When I was going through the break up with Bob the mom let me have a good cry before they left and even offered for me to stay there if I needed to. It's nice to have people whom act like my adopted family since mine is so far away. I babysat her last Saturday and she is growing up to be such a big girl. It was surreal, she seemed like a little 12 year old walking around. I can't wait to see what their new baby is going to be and hopefully the fun will just continue.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Last night Heather and I decided to throw a cupcake party, as part of our 'Anti-Valentine's Day' protest.

We had so many cupcakes it was insane. All I ate for 24 hours was cupcakes, way to go eating healthy! We talked, ate and watched youtube videos of insane things. It started out as watching Barnatt brother videos and progressed into weird, gross and things I've never even thought about. I'd say the night was a success.

Sunday, February 08, 2009

This whole eating healthy thing is HARD. I'm really trying though and today I did really well. This weekend, eh, not so much. I blame it on my period. I feel like I could eat an elephant and not be satisfied.

Today was a wonderful day in the state of Massachusetts. It hit 50 degrees. My body did a little happy dance called a 4 mile way through the streets of Boston. It was windy, a little drizzly but dammit, it was 50 degrees. I took my camera with me but wasn't inspired to take a single picture. It's a little ugly right now, I think that's why.

After I got home I started planning Nicole's Baby Shower. I'm getting really excited, I think it is going to turn out really cute. This evening I dragged Conor to go see Coraline with me. We had some awesome 3d glasses which they just happened to charge an extra $2.50 a ticket for. The movie was really amazing. A little creepy and dark, just what I like.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

That's it. This 5 pounds has got to come off. I've given myself a month, hopefully shorter (ha!) to do it. I'm starting tomorrow. Waking up at 4 am to take Heather to the airport and getting a coffee for myself is a great way to start. 130, here I come!

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Nicole posting a new blog made me think, I really need to do that more often. Even if my life is nothing but school and work, I really enjoy looking back and seeing what I've been doing. Heather isn't helping either because when I know she is going to be around I don't take my camera. I need to not let that stop me and just accept the fact that she blows me out of the water and I can still appreciate her pictures while posting my lame attempts here.

I'm starting this post at 10pm on a Sunday night which is insane because I need to be up very early. I have finally moved into Boston and am totally in love. Walking around the city this weekend made me realize that this is where I have needed to be. Living in the suburbs was rather hard for me because I didn't grow up there. I didn't no anybody or any cool spots to hang out. I couldn't go to the townie bar and see all my old classmates, it didn't work like that.

Friday night I went out with Heather and her friend who came into town from San Diego. His name was Andy and if she wasn't totally smitten by him, than I am. He was funny, charming, and a gentlemen. We started off getting pizza at Joseph's. We sat and talked and made weird pizza eating faces while the people waiting for the T outside watched. We hopped on the T and made our way into downtown where Heather realized she didn't bring her I.D. Off to the Hard Rock Cafe for drinks it was. We drank, I went to the bathroom and had a menu, glasses and straws miraculously jump in my purse and then we went to the North End.

We grabbed some cannolis, eclairs and cupcakes from some place that I can never remember the name too. After taking some romantic pictures, all for the sake of the shot, we sat and fed each other our treats. The whole night we had been trying to get Andy's friend to come join us so I could have someone to mack on but the boy chickened out so it was only us three. After realizing we were being ditched we headed to the karaoke bar where we finagled in without having to pay a cover, took a shot and listed to 'She's a Super Freak' by Andy. He was amazingly good. Andy then wanted to take naked pictures on the Charles River but after we all realized we were nowhere near drunk enough, he opted for clothed ones instead.

We walked through the common, over the bridges and the tree lit streets. It was incredibly romantic and I'm sure I ruined every shred of it for them. It's what I do best! We came upon this drunk guy who was walking into cars on Comm. Ave and decided we needed to stay with him until the police came to make sure he didn't get run over. We waited and waited, he fell in puddles and tried to walk away. Right before the cops showed up he got a burst of energy, hopped in a cab and remembered where he lived. We were talking to his wife on the phone and she didn't seem too thrilled with him. I wonder how that turned out.

We decided to catch a cab home at that point because my toes were frozen from chasing him around puddles. Once back to the apartment we all snuggled in bed and finished the chocolate cupcake. In the morning Andy made us amazing cupcakes and we said good-bye. I hope more weekends like this come my way.