Saturday, October 23, 2010

Somedays being a Mom is hard. Especially when you don't feel good and your school assignments are as fun as....well nothing. They get me totally frustrated which is exhausting because school is usually pretty easy for me. The way this professor teaches is so out of the ordinary that it's hard for me to grasp. So I snap at Adrian and it's not fair, but we move on. Matt lovingly told me that nobody's perfect. And it's true. We all have our ups and downs and while I'm in this lovely class I like to call hell, it will probably be filled with more downs.

Also this monday my cube-mate got fired. She was an awesome person and we always had a lot of fun swapping stories and listening to alternative music. She turned me on to quite a few bands, shocking for a Mom of two kids! ;) She's a single Mom, trying her hardest, making a few mistakes-none of which we all haven't made-and they just let her go. It sucks and I've re-vamped me resume and started sending it out to new firms. I was going to wait until 6 months but figured if someone gives me a chance now I might as well take it. I really want to work in downtown Boston because the commute would be a breeze and that's where I'm going to focus for now.

I found this picture a few days ago and it describes what I couldn't put into words. This is exactly what I want to do with the wall in Adrian's room.

I want to find some gig posters and get to work. We've been re-doing the space between the living room and kitchen and that should be finished within a week. Things are slowly coming together. If I could win the lottery they would come together a lot faster.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

I came home today ready to vent about work, the commute, school, my cubiclemate getting fired (sad) but then I read my friends 'blog' and that all went away.

I'm sitting here with tears streaming down my face as her daughter is clinging to life. This sweet, beautiful little girl has been fighting so hard and the doctors are getting to a point where they are unsure of what else to do.

My problems seem so miniscule compared to that, and they are. I wish I could be there with my friend. I wish I could be there to support her and her family but I can't. So now I just wait and hold onto hope that Hannah is going to shock us all and fight through this.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

This is me, procrastinating on homework. I really don't want to do it. I just want to relax on my Saturday but that doesn't happen. I'm looking around and laundry, dishes, cleaning, homework, Adrian and god knows what else all needs to be taken care of. I need a maid.

This week went by s.l.o.w.l.y. Adrian and I got to hangout last night because Matt attended a Gentleman meeting/Art Show in Providence with his friends. I highly encourage him to hang out with the dudes. Now I just need to start hanging out with the girls more often. I am attending a baby shower tomorrow if that counts...but I don't think it does. I want to go dancing, haven't gone in so long! Anyways-while Adrian and I were sitting on the couch he looks at me and says, "I'm going to go grow a beard". He was serious too. I was trying not to outwardly laugh, but it was pretty funny.

Matt is taking me on a date tomorrow. SQUEE! He's going to be working a lot the next week and has this past week so we need to spend some time together before I murder him in his sleep. :)

Monday, October 11, 2010

It's Monday, I'm at home and getting paid for it. Ahhhhhh, it's lovely. To get paid holidays at this job you need to be there for 90 days and it just so happens I hit my 90 days yesterday. I like to cut it close.

My homework is done. Adrian is playing, we got to keep him a little longer this weekend. It's been fun. We went to the pumpkin patch, picked out some ridiculously expensive pumpkins, around $36 for three pumpkins. I about choked and vomited when the total came up. Once a year is what I kept telling myself, this happens once a year.

And so we all walked out grasping out lovely pumpkins and everything was perfect. HA! Yeah right. We are walking out to the car and Adrian has a complete melt-down that he didn't get to go on the hayride. Kids. I'm sure I did this stuff to my parents as well. We told him he could go get a job and then take us on the hayride. He wasn't too keen on that.

We did have a nice day together though, honestly.

Thursday, October 07, 2010

Sitting in my little cubicle all day at work gets a tinge boring. But at least I have a cubiclemate! We have learned a lot about each other these past few months and it's nice to have someone to talk to during the day. She's older, divorced and has two younger daughters. We get along well, which is good.

She's been dating and has what I like to think is a crappy boyfriend right now. He doesn't want anything to do with her kids which is a huge red flag for me and would be a dealbreaker but she's holding out hope. They broke up about 3 weeks ago and she couldn't stay away. It drives me crazy but then I realize I was probably the exact same way when I was dealing with my break up.

Anyways-today we got on the discussion of Matt and I and she started saying things about how I should be out living my life, traveling and not tied down dating someone with a child. I mentioned to her that I have traveled the world and dating someone with a 4 year old doesn't automatically make us shut-ins. I love traveling and don't plan to ever stop, granted I haven't been anywhere this year but that's because of a new job and vacation time. I also stated that potentially within the next 3-4 years we would probably have a baby and she about died. She said I should wait until I was at least 30. I wanted to smack her. I'll be 27-28 years old if all pans out correctly and that is plenty 'old enough' to have a baby in my opinion. I don't want to be in my 30's when I have my first child. I want to be somewhat young. The whole conversation just took me by surprise and I was a little hurt. Matt and I have come a long way and he's great. He even called me today to say that he loved me and to see how I was, yet her boyfriend never even responded to the nice text she sent him this morning. Maybe she's just upset that her boyfriend is dick. She deserves better though and I'm very content with where I'm at in my life and where I'm going. It's not like I'm going to be on 16 and Pregnant.