Monday, January 30, 2006

Which way will I go

I went to church yesterday for the first time in like a year. I've been to some Mormon churches between that time but they are to crazy for me so I don't count them. I've never really gotten the meaning of church. I know you are supposed to feel this deep connection with God but I've never had that. I sit there listening to the pastor and start daydreaming about what kind of things I might buy at Target when I go later. Then the pastor talks about how people need to start giving more money. I hate that.

I'm confused on the whole religion aspect I guess. I want to believe there is something more but I just haven't been convinced in the right way.

Thursday, January 26, 2006

NOT in the job description

Chasing after kids who decided that their fingers would make excellent toilet paper for their poo

Tuesday, January 24, 2006


I made it. I'm exhausted from the past two days so this will be kinda short. Going from lounging around all day to looking after four kids is quite a challenge, who would have thought? The kids are adorable so that makes it a little easier. As we were eating dinner tonight I was trying to coax one of them into eating their broccoli. I told him his stomache loves broccoli so he should eat it. He then explained to me that his stomache doesn't like broccoli and it makes it burp. I thought that was pretty funny, but maybe it's just because I'm super tired.

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Worn me down

Tomorrow I'm leaving. It's kind of surreal that I'm actually doing this whole thing again. After my last experience I said I would never do it again. I figure if I survived the last job, this job should be easy. I just started packing, its not going very well. Packing away my things knowing that I'm going to be moving all the way across the freakin' country. I see the look on my Moms face and I can tell she doesn't want me to leave. I need to leave for me. Her health is not very good and I'm worried that somethings going to happen when I'm gone. I just can't sit here and wait for it to happen. Wish me luck.

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

Days and Days

The week with my sister and family was great. Couldn't have been better. My Aunt, Uncle and cousin are awesome! It was so nice to see them after so many years. My Aunt and I made a pact that the next time we saw each other we would go get tattoos. My Uncle doesn't like this idea, but his face was priceless when we told him our plan. We also played a crazy amount of Cranium. I haven't laughed that hard in a long time. Laughing does the body good.

Saying good bye to my nieces was rough. I didn't cry, amazingly. I had just spilt coffee all over myself, maybe thats why. Now I have only 4 days left before leaving. I have soooo much to do including writing thank you notes for Christmas gifts. I'm horrible at things like that.

Monday, January 09, 2006


Tomorrow I will be going up to Washington to visit my sister, brother-in-law, and two nieces before I leave for the East Coast. I wish my nieces could live closer because I enjoy every single minute I spend with those girls. And they love me too, because I buy them cool toys such as drums. I don't know if I will have the opportunity to see them again before Christmas, and even then I might not be flying back for Christmas.

It will be hard not seeing their little faces for so long.

While at my sisters my Aunt, Uncle and cousin will be there. I've never actually met my Aunt or my cousin. My family says I have, but I don't remember, I think I was like 1. My cousin is now 16-17 so her and I will probably have a lot of catching up to do.

Sunday, January 08, 2006

I have an addiction

With a little show on television called The O.C. Seriously...I'm troubled. I can't miss an episode and I've watched seasons 1 and 2 over and over again on my lovely dvd's. I've even started having dreams about the characters. Eek.

Friday, January 06, 2006

Time to sign up for the gym...again

I got the job! People love me, they were throwing job offers at me left and right. Not really, but I can pretend.

This family seems great. I don't think the stories I will be sharing here are going to be like the old ones. I think these ones are going to be happy ones. We can only hope.

So, I'm leaving soon. I will probably have the same feelings for the first couple of weeks.
Think about it...flying to some random persons house to watch their children all the way across the country. Pretty gutsy. At least I'll have lot's of time to think about it on the airplane.

Stay tuned, watching 4 children is going to be fun!

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

It looks like I won't have to change the name of my blog after all

I've been talking with a new family and it's not certain that I've got the job yet but it looks pretty good.

Rhode Island is close to Montana.....right? I think so.

I couldnt' find anything in Montana so I figured to check out the East Coast for a while. We'll see what happens.

Monday, January 02, 2006

Sweet home Montana

Since turning 19 ( a whole 23 hours ago) my mood has been in the dumps. It hit me hard that I'm 19 and sitting in my Mom's house doing nothing all day. With that...I've started looking at moving back to Montana. I want and need to get on with my life and I don't think this is the place to do it. So for the next couple of days I'll be searching for something...anything.