I feel like we are finally starting to find our grove.
This step-mom gig is hard, as I've talked about before. I have a really hard time conveying what I want to say because I don't want to hurt anybody's feelings and come off as a bitch. I know there is a parent/child connection that I have not yet experience and will never experience with him. He is not mine. As much as that sounds selfish, it just will never be there. I don't think that is something you can duplicate and since I haven't had my own child, I'm not exactly sure what it feels like. That doesn't mean I don't love him unconditionally as if he wasn't my own though. I would do anything for him. I go into mama-bear mode when we are at a playground and somebody is mean to him. These past few weeks have been really great though. I miss him during the times that we don't have him. I feel like we are both finally starting to get one another and he is realizing that I'm not going anywhere. It's a good feeling.
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